Silver, there is no judgement in this forum. none at all. you are coping with a lot of stress, fear, flachbacks, nightmares. breathe in..... breathe out.... count to 10... breathe again.... be still and just let the feeling of us all caring for you envelope you. you are ok. it doesn't feel like it, but you are ok. ok has nothing to do with what is going on around you, i know. you are cared for. breathe it in...
there is no possible way to dissapoint anyone. we've all been there. keep breathing.... try to give yourself some love and care for your injuries. be loving with yourself - it is never too late to start.
I care about you kiya