Dear Bluemoon3,

I am so very, very sorry you are suffering. It is heartbreaking what you are going through. I wish I knew what to say to ease the pain you are experiencing. Have you ever consulted with a licensed physician? Sometimes there are medical reasons for the things you are suffering. I hope these Forums will be helpful to you. I have experienced many of the things you describe and they are horrible experiences.

Sincerely yours, Yao Wen