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Originally Posted by MsLady
I think these quotes are the most important pieces in your situation.
1) You're afraid
2) He "WILL" end up as a "serial killer", according to his feelings.
I also question why he's telling you all this. I'm wondering if instilling fear and uncertainty in you is part of this rush. I worry his true self is just now starting to emerge and may feel that your kindness, loyalty, and love for him is enough for you to stand by him.
It's best for your safety and sanity to get out now. Sorry.
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Thanks for your honesty.
I wasn't sure if he was trying to be honest. Trying to see if I can accept him. Or if he wanted my professional assessment (I am not a clinician, but I am a professional prayer-based therapist). When we talked yesterday, he was surprised by my fear. And he said he was already "okay". He told me no more documentaries for him. And that when he stopped watching it the thoughts went away immediately. That's weird for me too, actually. An emotionally normal person would be shaken up by that kind of darkness. It wouldn't just go away.
He agreed to get assessed and I am going to see my therapist to talk about it.
But yes, I am prepared to walk away. I hate it. I thought I loved him. I thought I was going to marry him. But better to be alone than unhappy.