silver ... kind of think lots of us are struggling... you know i use to count the days i didn't cut ... and then when i cut... i felt like i was back at start... and that was so discouraging... my t has me keep a chart... but we both realized i was looking at it the wrong way... he uses it to track my cycle... but instead of looking at my failures... he wants me too look at my successes... not my slips... it' has helped me not feel as guilty when i do slip... so i don't stay there as long... soooo don't look at it as a failure... look at it as all the days you didn't.... you "are" doing great and you give me hope...lyn