I know I love her because I miss having her lying there with me in bed, I miss seeing her the moment I get home, I miss the connection we have to talk and spend time doing nothing. She is tenacious, spunky, reckless, loving, beautiful and most of all caring. I see her as the mother to my children, the person I want to sit on the catch with coffee on Christmas. I’m a very mental person meaning I overthink and I have major automatic negative thinking problems. I struggle to say what I mean and that causes misperceptions of what I’m trying to say. I don’t want to hold her against her will. I would do anything to keep her in my life and work through this!