I started therapy about a month ago after an emotional breakdown following 10 years of ignoring the trauma that I had lived through in the past. We are doing sessions twice a week because of how distressed I was when we started.
I feel like we have made some progress but she has been asking more questions about how my parents were growing up etc. They had very high expectations and were very critical and this is something I have come to terms with in the past and have been angry outwardly with them about so in a way I have kind of processed this. She seems to think that the trauma that I came to see her for is bad but is not the main issue and is focusing more on my relationship with my parents. Frankly, I am kind of over the thing with my parents. I accept them for who they are although I am angry at them in some ways. I also understand that them being critical contributed to issues I have now, but I certainly feel like the trauma I came to see her about is the worst issue because of the way it makes me feel about myself and is what causes my OCD. I feel like she is minimising the main issue or focusing on something else. I am not saying that the relationship with my parents and my life story are not a contribution factor but I don't think she is focusing on the right thing.
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