I am sorry to hear that you have no family left. I understand your emotional pain and it sounds like you feel trapped inside your marriage. Well, would you rather be lonely and married, or lonely and alone? Which feels worse to you? If you are alone, you increase your chances of finding a more suitable husband who includes you in his life as his partner. It sounds like your husband doesn't include you in his life and rather just treats you like his roommate. That's terrible, if indeed that's the dynamics of your marriage.