I'm sorry you're feeling confused and unhappy.

It's really hard for me to deal with advice from others.

One time a friend of mine who I like a lot said I should stop all my meds. Unfortunately, I listened and I did it. I ended up in the hospital twice.

I am not trying to scare you, but just trying to illustrate that friends, even though they are friends, don't always know the full picture mental-health wise. Doctors (at least hopefully) do.