I'm not going to beat myself up for procrastinating my routine list with extra Vyvanse (Which is likely to make anxiety worse) and taking rare alprazolam (Which can cause dependence again). I wasn't getting anxiety when withdrawing from it - I just couldn't sleep. But I've been staying awake for a while because I'm so uncertain of everything and need to fix it. This is what the site said about uncertainty and it relates to me;

"Seeking excessive reassurance from others: This might be asking friends or family their opinion on a decision that you have to make
List-making: As a way of eliminating uncertainty, some people will make long and detailed “to do” lists, sometimes several lists every day

Double checking: For example, calling loved ones repeatedly to “make sure” that they are okay, or re-reading emails several times to check that they are perfect and that there are no spelling mistakes

Refusing to delegate tasks to others: Many people who are intolerant of uncertainty will not allow anyone either at work or at home to do certain tasks; this is because they cannot be “sure” that it will be done correctly unless they do it

Procrastination/avoidance: Because being uncertain can cause anxiety, some people simply procrastinate or avoid people, places or situations. If you do not do something, then you don’t have to feel uncertain about it

Distraction: Many people who are intolerant of uncertainty keep themselves “busy” most of the day, that way, they don’t have the time to think about all the uncertainty in life"