To my ex,

We met not long ago at the bank to sign our IRS return checks. It had both of our names on it and we had to meet together. Things seemed civil between you and I, and for a brief moment, I had the illusion that we were a family again. Our daughter, between us, holding our hands. She was jumping and full of joy.

I had to leave after and our daughter started crying...she said that she wanted mommy and daddy to be together. The look on her face, her crying shook me to my core. How could you stand there and act so careless, don't you see what you are doing to our little girl? I tried asking you about it, and you responded, she doesn't understand.

I often wonder how you can be so cruel and careless when it comes to destroying our daughter's vision of a family.

How could you? I want to be as numb as you, please end this pain. Teach me how you are so numb and bereft of goodness. I would have hoped 8 months later, I would be cured...but nothing is further from the truth.

Does it give you joy to see me in pain? Why do you apologize for causing me pain, when it was your decision to end everything?

The isolation I feel and loneliness are eating away at me and vexing me.

--sarc