I haven't really purged since this post (I did maybe 2 or 3 times, but nothing in months), but I haven't really been eating much. I've been having around 400-500 calories a day... I know, it's not better, but it makes me feel better. I don't really know what to do anymore. I just feel so disgusting, ugly, fat, stupid, and everything else. I don't know how to make myself feel better. Nothing makes me feel better. I tried to kill myself on Saturday.