I appreciate your comments/advice. I moved back to the area I am now in after 10 years. I don't know anyone except for Joe and his friends (and my father is also in the area)....so I get a little lonely and fed up sometimes when I really need to vent, talk to, or just listen to someone else's thoughts for a while. I made the mistake of making Joe my whole life, and I haven't even tried to branch out to see what the arts community is like here now after all these years. Joe and I are very, very, different, and everything did move extremely fast....I was excited that (after two serious relationships falling through) someone actually wanted me.....I knew what was going on, I just chose to not pay attention. I came from a broken family myself, and I still feel the reprocussions of that situation. At the moment, I am feeling very self-centered, and pretty much like an ***.....but I realize it is because I think I broke off more that I could chew so to speak. I think that Joe will probably move in with his mother, and in the meantime, we will try to work things out.....however, I feel that it probably won't. We are just too different. I will be 30 next month, which I have been really excited about, and now I have the feeling I will be eating cake by myself.