Sorry WC, while I was being humorous about carrying my lamp staff down the street (although it truly happened). I am serious about doing the thing that your psychosis focuses on in a safe manner with rules. It seems to release some repressed need whether you even believe in it or not. So 90% of days I don’t believe in shamanism but there are still 10% of the days where it could be true. Thing is doing it actually lessens it’s power over you. It doesn’t make me a shaman, it makes me realize there are limits to even the perceived power of shamans. People aren’t necessarily magically cured just by me walking down the street with my staff, like I had hoped. Even in the shaman communities you can only heal someone if they request it and there is a procedure. It is it’s own reality check in a way. But if you keep it repressed it’s like your brain doesn’t know that or ever figure it out. ie sometimes you need to act out delusions to figure out their truth.

This is definitely a weird psychosis thing and I probably didn’t explain it clearly enough. That’s why my rule is as long as it doesn’t hurt anyone, it’s ok.