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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic
Sorry WC, while I was being humorous about carrying my lamp staff down the street (although it truly happened). I am serious about doing the thing that your psychosis focuses on in a safe manner with rules. It seems to release some repressed need whether you even believe in it or not. So 90% of days I don’t believe in shamanism but there are still 10% of the days where it could be true. Thing is doing it actually lessens it’s power over you. It doesn’t make me a shaman, it makes me realize there are limits to even the perceived power of shamans. People aren’t necessarily magically cured just by me walking down the street with my staff, like I had hoped. Even in the shaman communities you can only heal someone if they request it and there is a procedure. It is it’s own reality check in a way. But if you keep it repressed it’s like your brain doesn’t know that or ever figure it out. ie sometimes you need to act out delusions to figure out their truth.
This is definitely a weird psychosis thing and I probably didn’t explain it clearly enough. That’s why my rule is as long as it doesn’t hurt anyone, it’s ok.
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I take a slightly different route, but I am with you on this in concept. It is my belief that the delusions we are drawn to, and especially the ones that we hold onto tightly or experience repetitively, are significant in some way.
When mine come up, I recognize them as delusions, but I do not just dismiss them. I try to see what they might mean symbolically. My subconscious is holding onto the belief, so I approach working with it in the language of the subconscious. I think your method of working with the belief to consciously 'know' it in a reality based setting is a beautiful idea. It can give the experience meaning and purpose and then perhaps one day unlock the 'why' which is what we need to discover.
Blue, about the definition of delusion... Take a point in time approach to it. What I hold as a delusion for a period of time can later be identified as a false belief. It is more of a state of consciousness thing to me. In one state, I 100% without any shred of doubt held these beliefs. They were truly fixed. Later, I moved into a more combined reality state and saw myself through other lenses and realized those beliefs were false.
In the same way I am both a mother and someone's child, there are versions of me who know delusions are such and a part of me that still holds onto them. The goal is to make sure the delusion believer stays in the back seat and does not take the wheel.