Well 20,000 posts and counting .. If I only had a dollar for each... well hell I'd take a dime

Well my life is incredibly stressful with my husband getting layer on top of layer of serious health problems. I routinely have 7-8 alarms set on my phone daily to keep things on track. I am now needing to figure out meals and portions to help balance out the latest addition Type II diabetic.. He just finished Steroids yesterday so I will start seeing where we are at in the next week for his numbers. Then the addl inhaler and oral medication on top of the Symbicort he already takes.. Well I am hoping they improve his lung function.

He is struggling to accept yet another major illness. He's angry and often wondering what is the point of all this.. My heart breaks when he talks that way, but hes got to wrap his head around it. I can just be here for him.

I have slept less than 6 hours in 10 days. I am on Steroids myself so that means NO sleep for me, But I also am not comfortable drugging myself to the floor in case I need to drop everything and get him to the Doctor or hospital.

I talked to my T today and it helped to verbally speak my fears. He is very worried about me , but he admits that there isnt anything else I can do other than what I am. I do not have the Luxury of falling apart.. We have no one that can help us, We are alone.

Honestly I wish the entire world would just shut the hell up for 15 mins.. Just silence