i am glad she is there for you kiya... i understand how scary it is for you... was for me too... i had a friend online that was there for me when i started lexapro... was the first time i had used an ad... i hate taking meds... and it was really hard to start them... that is part of why my having to go back on them now was so hard... and i don't want to call my med doc cuz i know he will want to up the dose...lyn