I have a couple of things....

First, I have been sleeping between 9 and 11 hours each night for many months now. It's getting to be a real drag because I'd like to stay up later than I do. It has to do with my latuda and remeron, they both make me really tired about an hour after I take them. Not much to do except take them later and try to sleep less.

Secondly I feel like I've stopped growing as a person. I'm stuck in this rut of depression and an having a hard time finding my way through it. I literally don't do anything beyond going with the flow. I don't initiate anything, I just follow. I used to be a doer but now I just follow along. If there's nothing to do then I do nothing.

I haven't written in quite a while and am having a hard time motivating myself.

Neither of these are new and I don't see quick solutions to them. I guess I'm just venting.

My pdoc is out of ideas with respect to medications and I'm waiting for a referral to a special clinic for more treatment options, but who knows when that might happen.