I'm about to lose my mind. There are SO many things going on within the next couple of weeks, making it very difficult to schedule a time in which I would go to the hospital (if that's what I decide I want). I have a bridal shower, two concerts, a wedding, my graduation with my in-laws coming to visit, my birthday, and the start of a new job. How stupid I was to think that once I ended school I would have some time for myself. I'm sitting in my office at work, intermittently crying, with lots of new cuts from last night. Maybe I just need to kick my own *** and get it together because obviously my life does not accommodate this %#@&#!.