Well no, you are not an idiot. In the UK you used to be able to voluntarily go into hospital if you felt you were on the brink so to speak.

I personally think you have been through so much recently and about to start your dream job, can be very stressful. I'm not good with change, even with good change I react the opposite way to what you would think. Suicidal instead of happy!

I think you know yourself the best in what you need to do, but I would be inclined to step up the therapy with T and deal with this with him. You trust him the most right?

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