Why don't you try doing a drawing/painting and see if it helps?
Came back to add to this....
You've lost two of your outlets. Many of us are scrambling to find new coping skills since we don't have access to what's worked for us.
There's a whole branch of therapy called art therapy. It allows a person to express themself without having to use words. I understand your concern about loosing your demons. Maybe art work would drain their energy instead? Think if you wrote down what you want to draw. Would it make things worse? Maybe you could try with something small and see how it goes?
Please do what feels right for you.