I feel absolutely awful today. I am very lethargic. I am rapidly putting on weight. I told my job I wasn’t coming back and they put my status as quitting but as rehire-able. At first they said I couldn’t come back if I quit. Then I mentioned moving 3 hours away and asked if it was ok to go back to another location. But I just feel so sick mentally and physically and I honestly have no idea what to do. I am at a total loss. But if things continue this way I don’t see myself living another year or 2.

And now my mom has to go back for a second mammogram. **** just keeps hitting me and I’m already so mentally fragile I feel like I’m going to break any second. I wish the mental health options weren’t so ****** where I am.