Hi Mushbroom, welcome to Psyh Central. Sorry you are finding yourself overwhelmed right now. However, it's important that you face some realities and that just may hurt. Yeah, Reality can be very hard to face sometimes, yet, it's essential to any true growth as a person.

A gambling problem is NOT a minor problem when you have a family that depends on you. And you only stopped nine days ago, isn't that when things began to "change"? Addiction problems can ruin relationships.