Went on a 3.5 mike walk today with RS and my son. It wasn’t supposed to be that long but we read the trail maps wrong and ended up taking a very long loop! But we got to see a lot of historical farmhouses and a restored covered bridge. It was very nice. RS and my son played in the shallow river (not sure what river it was) and swam around a bit. I don’t like rivers or lakes so I sat on some rocks chugging water because I stupidly didn’t bring any for our walk. Thankfully I had a case in my car.

I’m having back pain again. Like something is pressing on my sciatic nerve. It’s in the low back and somehow skips going through my leg but makes my knee hurt as well. I’m concerned that I may have reherniated the disk I had fixed last year. If that’s the case, I will have to have spinal fusion surgery. Much longer and more intense surgery with a long recovery time. Not happy.

I told my therapist from IOP that I want to quit. She said she would “talk to the treatment team”. I don’t care what they say, I’m not calling in anymore. I’m going to call my psychiatrist and get set up in her office and then contact my regular therapist and get back with her. I feel like at thus point IOP is just trying to squeeze money out of me. I have a 0 on the depression/anxiety scale and have for a few weeks. So why do I need to stay? No reason.