Maybe there's something about this T that makes you feel safer about letting out your emotions? I think it's OK to let the tears flow, better really. I was also raised in an environment where showing negative emotions (crying, showing anger in any form) wasn't OK. And now I often cry through many of my sessions, and I actually find it to be very healing. My T just sitting there and accepting it, not judging, I find it to be very helpful. I've apologized a couple times when I've been really sobbing, and he's always said, "It's OK." There have been sessions where I've cried quite a bit, and after, I've felt both sort of wiped out and also a bit lighter, like I've freed myself of something. There's something about just having someone else witness my emotions and just sort of containing them that has a lot of meaning for me. There are some sessions where I don't cry at all, or maybe just wipe my eyes a couple times--I'm not a waterfall every time. But I feel it's helpful to get those emotions out in a safe space (whether physical or, currently, virtual). I joked one time about how many tissues I used in T's office, and he said that I'm on the platinum plan, with unlimited tissues. But I think T's are used to it and comfortable with clients crying, so feel free to let it go.

I'd try talking about how it's uncomfortable for you, too. And how it takes you back to being a child and being ignored. I think T's are trained to not react much to crying, but maybe say what could help you in the moment. Maybe just acknowledgment, like, "I see you're crying--it's OK. Do you want to talk about what you're feeling?" Or whatever you think might help you.