it's almost like we're toxic for each other in a way. how can that be when we can also do such good work togehter. **** me an d**** this relationship.. i am so mad at myaself tonight. i mean how the hell did you think i would feel when i read tha temail? do you not know me as well as you (obviously) pretend to?! of course i feel guilty!! how could i feel anything BUT? i can't ever face you again. EVER.