CASH ! Yes take your PRNS ! please take them and go to bed. Turn the music off. that's a huge red flag for you, Stay outta the shower..

Please take meds and crawl in bed and do breathing exercising or anything that is calming... If your husband is working tomorrow can your Mom help you out with the kids and to keep an eye on you???

Back away from that Big light your being pulled towards.. You are strong you can resist it.... it might feel good but it always ends with you doing a big crash and burn

If you feel unsafe please tell your husband and get help ASAP

Breathe