Yeah, you're right.

I guess it's just hard because of the medicine I'm on right now. Or maybe I'm just unsure what the medicine is supposed to be doing right now. It was my thought to go take a prescribed Xanax but I honestly don't know if that'll help or hurt my anxiety these days. Not to put this solely on my pdoc, but I think he is so wishy-washy with what he suggests that I feel like I can do almost anything with the meds.

So I guess that might be what it's really about. Anxiety related to meds and what they're supposed to be doing. I know the combination has worked for a while and I know my pdoc wants me to continue on meds and stuff, but I am just super unsure about whether the meds cause my sluggishness and lack of motivation at times and the pdoc doesn't necessarily understand that. Of course, I want to continue on some level of meds. But, I also know that too high of dosages can be bad for me personally, as high dosages make me feel like a zombie.