I'm very very sorry you had to go through all of that @Worriedtoomuch. Such lonely, harrowing, childhood experiences. I wish I could turn back the clock for you and change everything. I'll never understand why so-called 'adults' can treat children in such a terrible way, friend, and I hope Forums at Psych Central will give you something to uplift your spirits and help you find happiness in this life.

A very warm welcome to you, Worriedtoomuch.