Hello 1imaan1: I'm sorry I don't think there is any advice I could offer with regard to your concern. However I noticed this is your first post here on PC. So I wanted to at least welcome you to Psych Central.

One additional forum, here on PC, that may be of interest to you would be the Coping with Emotions forum. Here's a link:

https://psychcentralforums.com/coping-with-emotions/

And then since you're a teen here's a link to an article, from Psych Central's archives, that offers tips for coping with emotions as a teen:

Techniques for Teens: How to Cope with Your Emotions

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.