I'm gonna take alprazolam because my mom is having sex with her bf. It reminds me of when I was a kid and I was eating cereal my parents said "We're gonna go upstairs and sleep" and I could hear them having sex.

I feel like there's entities causing things like this to happen on purpose and there's an audience watching to see if I react to it.

I'm solipsistic. They just went into the room and what am I supposed to be doing? Looking up VR headsets, completely in pain in trying to relax - It's like I'm afraid of something bad happening.. Like when I asked my mom to open the door because I thought she called the police on her bf - I was impolite to do that or something?

What am I doing wrong here? I don't think I should put this in a trigger because it's not considered triggering. It's supposed to be funny to most people but I'm not really laughing - Just at how ridiculous my reality is.