I've been trying to deal with my emotions about my emotionally abusive father. They swing around a lot. Sometimes I can't stand to be around him, and fantasize about his death. Other times I just avoid him and have a general dislike. But those emotions are ones that I have managed to find ways to cope with those feelings (usually avoiding him). But for some reason my new feelings are more complex. I feel both that same lack of care, but I'm also beginning to feel guilty when I'm around him. I've done things that I regret and things I shouldn't have done but this guilt is leeching into almost every small interaction with him. The second I walk away from all but ignoring him I'm hit with this guilt.

What should I do?