I suspect that trip will not happen as it does appear the eu will ban US travelers. That said, I have previously expressed my profound worry about the trip for you, so, enough sai on all that.

Since I am alone now, I cannot really imagine what all this cooping up of families who reside together must be causing for people, stress-wise. No way to get a little alone time, no real easy way to decompress. It must be very difficult. My poor 88 year-old dad, who is physcially completely healthy, has not been out in months. Not permitted by his home and COVID is raging here. So hard.

What about trying to actually schedule a daily trip out of the hosue alone? A walk, say. Bikd ride, whatever it is you enjoy. Some time just for you to be alone and to think and process and, as I say, sort of maybe decompress a bit? It might really do some good. Go look at some birds, for God's sake. You love that!!! It makes you happy. Do that. Get your binocs and go do it.

Hubby is clearly hell-bent on this trip and doing it his way, for now, at least. I was married to a woman who was constitutionally like this 24/7. I finally realized she did not desire my input. What she wanted was for me to shut up and write checks, which I did for 17 years, much to my detriment. Not comparing her to hubby in any meaningful way, clearly, but this current dynamic is one I have much experience with. It is unlikely to be smooth, in my experience, until and unless your prefectly valid and scientifically/medically appropriate concerns are actually heard and processed by the portion of him that is not hell-bent on doing this precisely and exactly he wishes at present.

Communication, BD. I just do not see another way through this without it. I know you are a very good communicator and excellent at advocating for you. You can totally do this!!!!!

Love and hugs always!!!!!!!!!!1