Yes, it resonates, and no, I don't think it would be helpful to keep your feelings to yourself. Sometimes we can disclose feelings without acting on them, though. What I have been working on recently when I notice I have an OTT reaction is instead of acting out the reactionary feelings is to tell the therapist I am having them. It's not easy and I'm not always successful - sometimes I get taken off guard and react without thinking. But I'm getting better at it. Last Thursday I found myself wanting to act out at her over text because I was upset about something. I caught myself and instead of texting random accusations about how she doesn't care about me and nobody cares about me, etc. etc., I decided to text her that I was upset and that I had noticed my impulse was to create drama with her for no reason. I suggested we talk about why I respond this way next week. She was very receptive and although I was still in some emotional turmoil, I ended up feeling good about how I dealt with the situation.
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Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face.
-David Gerrold
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