I feel SO stuck and disgruntled by the fact that I cannot leave my husband right now, and I don't know how this is all going to shake out.

I have my annual review this week at work, which means I get a raise (hopefully). Last year, I got a 3.5% raise. If I get the same amount this year, I could definitely carry our full rent by myself plus all my expenses. But NOT his car payment.

I need to talk to my therapist, but my appt is not until Wed.

I wish I could just tell my husband, "this is over, I do not love you anymore, please pack your stuff and move to Florida to live with your parents".

This morning I did not say "i love you" as I usually do when he leaves in the morning. I don't even think he noticed.