Eerily quite here this morning. Weird. Hope everyone is okay...

Terrible sleep. No sleep, really. Tried. Kept having secret agent/spy dreams that were stressful and not fun. No dreams about Loren, my deceased pal, though, so that was a bit better. Prolly need a napski later.

I actually have some motivation this morning. Quite different from where things have been for the last month. Maybe yesterday's little manic blip is a sign that I might be improving finally in this arena. That would be so nice. I really must clean my ktichen, at the very least. It is a complete nightmare. I am so embarrassed at my inability to carry out basic activities of daily living. Just look at what has become of me. I am only 56, but I am living like an infirm 89 year-old. Actually, that comment is unfair to my extremely active 88 year-old father, who's brain is 10 katrillion times more functional than his son's. But he only had major depression, never bipolar like his mom. Ugh. He put her in the Texas state hospital in 1957. I bet that was very frightening for her and for him. So depressing.

I really do not want to just sit in this chair for the next however many years until I die. So, maybe it will get a little better soon. I amintain hope.

I was so grateful that my extremely accurate and candid vice president informed me of how awesomely we are managing COVID. I was worried until he informed me things were totlaly outstanding!!!!!!!! Now, i feel so much better!!!!!!!!!1

Love and hugs to all!!!!!! I hope everyone struggling finds peace and hope and strength today. I always pray for you guys every night.