Thank you guys! They decided on PHP but I’m afraid it won’t last. It took everything in me not to steal my mom’s car tonight and take off to the beach which is a good 12 hour drive since Hubs has all of our keys hidden....the hallucinations are getting worse too. I need to reign this in so fast. The program itself doesn’t actually start until wed since its online right now. I will be meeting with my temporary t and pdoc at PHP tomorrow which means I will thankfully also be able to see my own t tomorrow and get her feel and evaluation of the situation. I didn’t get to see her last week because she was out of town and I’ve gotten much worse since I saw her 2 weeks ago.