It's not ridiculous, it's PTSD.

Hypervigilence...yep in it's truest form...and you have good reason for it too, as it's ongoing. Then, add in the constant vigilence of being watched, not just by the pervert but all the others too it must be "off the charts" anxiety!

B r e a t h e! and breathe some more.

Hoping this gets to a good conclusion soon.