We are still doing video therapy. It is hard I miss just feeling the energy of being in the same room together, I miss the safety of feeling like she is holding the space, I hate not having the ride home to process and compose myself. I really miss her comforting hugs. I do also miss being her body language. She is quite expressive with her body language so it is harder to read her.

All that being said, I can't imagine where I would be without her right now. Within the last month I needed to make life or death decisions for a family member. I was alone in the decisions as well as it was very triggering of my childhood trauma. My therapist was there every step of the way to support me and then deal with the death of the family member. Because of her office setup, she as with most therapists around here, are apprehensive about doing in person appointments. So without video therapy I really would be on my own right now. Add that to not being able to see much of my other supports and away from the activities that bring me joy and connection, I eoudl be a complete mess.