I got so nervous about my psychiatrist, that I literally drove to his office to see if there was some note on the door. There was none. I went in knowing that the receptionist of the rheumatologist he shares the group of offices with, might be there. I simply asked if she knew if my doctor was OK. She, a little surprised, said yes as if she wondered why I was even asking. I told her I was supposed to have had an appointment with him yesterday, and that I hadn't heard from him. She informed me that he hasn't been seeing patients in person for a while, which I told her I knew. But I know that he had been working out of that office for past video sessions. I know because I saw his office in the background during our video sessions. I thought that if he had, in fact, been in the office yesterday that she might have seen him pass by. I guess she didn't, or she lied to me. Anyway, it was almost as if she didn't even know he had been in the hospital...or even worked at the office these past few months. She even said she assumed he had been working from home the whole time. I don't get that! If she was totally ignorant of everything, I don't think I said anything to her that my psychiatrist wouldn't have wanted me to. I didn't even bring up his recent hospitalization.

This is all so strange! I know there are some people here that call their psychiatrists and don't hear back from them for a while, or at all. That has never been the case with my psychiatrist, unless I specifically said something that implied not needing a call back. I worry he's either back in the hospital, or something else bad happened. If not, and he just forgot that he offered me an appointment yesterday, he must really have his head spinning. I'm so worried.