I have had many dips in this pool of sht and so far, came up and washed off every time. That certain knowledge is a life saver. Literally. This morning, so far, is nowhere near as bad as last night, but my "score" is still high, so I am very wary of what the rest of the day will bring. As I age my resilience is not what it used to be. Not this time, but one of these episodes, someday, will be the last. It is maybe a bit like having a slow cancer and the knowledge during cycles of remission that it will eventually be your destiny to succumb.