No, no, no--you are not to blame. You have a brain illness, Busymom. You did not give it to you. As far as current science is known, it is not possible for a person to give themselves bipolar 1. Not possible. You have done a remarkable job under very trying conditions and your son just told you how he feels. I was away from my poor daughter for 5 freaking years because of my illness. It broke her heart in two, because we were literally physically inseparable up until I went there. But you know what? She has learned a lot about bipolar disorder. She does not blame me in the least. Was she sad? Duh. But life is not all candy and roses and we cannot protect our children completely from the vicissitudes of this world. To do so would be a disservice, because they need to know how to deal with adversity.

So, be thankful for your beautiful and special children and carry on. Plenty o fbipolar patients do not even get to see or speak to their kids. You are truly blessed. Make some lemoanade.

Hugs!!!!!!!!!1