This has been the hardest era of my life to date. Every step forward leaves me two steps back. As many of you may remember I lose my job about a year ago, and my marriage — divorce finalized in December of 2019. I was living with my mother and that was a hassle in itself. It got to the point I couldn’t take the verbal abuse anymore and I left. My friend who said I could stay with him bailed out on me and so I’m left to the little money I have and basically sleeping parking lots or a cheap hotel when I can. Good news- I was hired at amazon but I don’t start until the 12th. I also had an interview for a teaching job. All of this is in Louisville, about an hour and a half from everything I know. I’m scared to death of driving in a big city but I’m getting better. I am still on Medicaid because I don’t have income and Louisville is large enough to have social aids that readily available. I have a new therapist (first actual one in Kentucky. I’ve worked through better help for years). And q new psychiatrist. I’ve already had my initial meeting with my therapist, and I’m not a big fan. I felt judged from the moment I opened my mouth. I know I have to give her a chance, but it I couldn’t be fully open due to fear of her reactions. I see a psychiatrist next week. I have medicine until then so mental health is taken care of; a job that pays weekly is guaranteed just delayed and perhaps a job I want on the way too.... but living out of my car is very hard.

The therapist kind of threw me for a loop though. After our 30 minute initial meeting (telehealth), she immediately set up an appointment for Wednesday (tomorrow). She also said she doesn’t think I have anxiety she things it’s PTSD. I’m not sure if I can subscribe to that concept based on how I understand it, but she is the professional and as I told her — labels mean little right now to me. I just want to get on me feet and feel better. So I guess she thinks I’m bipolar and have PTSD. Have you ever been surprised by a diagnosis ? Again, it’s not that important but I’m just having a harder time seeing the fit: clearly no one here can diagnose nor am I giving information for you to conclude something... my question is simply have you ever had a diagnosis that seemed a bit quit and based on how you understand it; doesn’t seem exactly a fit? I know the best option is to talk to her about it but again — no rapport yet and I feel she is judgemental . I’m willing to give her a chance though.

[and to the admins— please do not move the thread somewhere else. This is my community and I’m asking them because I trust them and their experience would be more insightful to me due to related conditions. Not that my opinion matters , but I do think it’s a bit rude to move threads without consent. Sometimes people choose to post where they feel most comfortable. I hope that isn’t a problem. Thanks}