TEEE WHERE ARE YOU?????

That is what I feel like screaming right now. I should be pulling into a parking space in his lot right now and I'm sitting here posting instead.

It's so amazing how our core wounds are played out over and over within the context of our relationship with T. OMG, I feel so abandoned and the worst part is that I feel like he dumped me with strangers like my parents did once for a month. That feeling came up because of the crappy pdoc visit yesterday

So, he's coming back right? He didn't abandon me did he? I'm so freaking anxious. Intellectually I know the answers to those questions but emotinoally I can't FEEL the security. I only feel nervous and there is a little voice in my head that is making me confused and saying, "you're alone." "You are in an empty space."