I barely slept. I am full of angst, fear and worry. I don't know how to proceed. We almost broke up on his bday because he started yet another fight If he does this yet again, it's likely that I will call it quits right then and there. The only reason I didn't follow through last weekend is because I hadn't spoken with a lawyer yet, I don't have all my ducks in a row yet, and he said I was a horrible person for breaking up with him on his bday.