Worst sleep ever last night. Total jokeski. Actually, had I been thinking about it, I should have just gotten up and gotten something done, like clean the bathroom. Maybe today... Sleep is a constantly moving target for me, so, I do not ever get upset about this anymore. It's no problemo. I sleep whever I am sleepy enough. The end. Why would I freak about something I cannot control?
Got 26 pages edited yesterday. So thankful. It is finally coming together. I feel like I am on the right track, overall, with the way I am unfolding the stories and the information. Interestingly, I emailed the woman who ran the supervisory program for all patients not in the hosptial who have asserted the insanity defense here. Had some questions for her. She initially told me to call her, which I have done, a couple of times. She now refuses to reply after multiple attempts. I wonder if she does nto want to talk wiht me because she knows shd did some things very, very wrong. I will simply communicate that she did not reply in the manuscript. She was fired from that job for verbally abuisng her staff. She is not liked. Quite the opposite. Her job now? Inspector General of the Portland Police Bureau. Perfect for her. She'll fit right in. She hates mentally ill people, too. Always did.
Turned on the TV while making my coffee first thing. The new Lincoln Project ad was on. It has a US Army Veteran, a a very impressive and tough-looking Republican gun owner, voicing his disgust with our president over this Russia bountygate thing. I must say, I found myself quickly overcome with anger. Actually, almost rage. Suddenly. I had thoughts about my president that are, well, that I am embarrassed to have had, so negative and, uh, well, just negative, shall we say, were they. Kinda ashamed of myself for havign those feelings. Not happy that I have that inside me. I do not like it at all. Sorta upset about that. But it just happened and I couldn't help it. I calmed down fast, though, so..
It is a reminder that I really have to be careful as the election ramps up. I cannot really watch much of thsi stuff, as I do become angry sometimes. So, gotta watch this now a bit more closely.
Love and hugs to all!!!!!!!!!!!!
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