I am starting a new thread.

I am preparing to divorce my abusive and volatile husband. I am working hard right now to get all my ducks in a row, including legal paperwork to present, before telling him.

Because he's explosive, unreasonable, childish and retaliatory, I am afraid of telling him and I am afraid of what his reaction will be. I am worried he will throw objects or become violent by hitting a wall or some object.

I am trying to hire a legal mediator. I am working on this. I have to also somehow get out a car lease that I co-signed for him, so I want to talk to a lawyer about getting that included in the legal agreement.

I am freaking out though. I have not eaten, and I have not slept. All I feel is fear and anxiety.

This is truly a horrendous experience that I would never wish upon anyone.

And I do not know how this will all come about: in the next explosive episode? Or during a calm moment when I am ready? Each time he explodes., I've almost ended the marriage.