I’m so tense around him, I’m being quiet and less affectionate, I’m always tired and want to go to bed early and he’s not even noticed the changes in me.

I’m pretending everything is ok but it’s not. He has no idea I’m planning a divorce and I won’t tell him until I’m ready. I feel guilty. But then I think of how much he’s bullied me and terrorized me with his tantrums and explosions turning into abusive tirades, well, it’s for the best.