Well, I have officially been out of hospital for six months (PTSD last year) and no Bipolar symptoms for 16 months. Mental stability is good. I had never known it for so long since I was a child. My body unfortunately is paying that toll with severe Chronic Fatigue Syndrome/Fibromyalgia. The last week has shown some small improvements. I have had a tiny bit more energy and capacity. Unfortunately, I woke up with a cold yesterday and have nearly lost my voice this morning from it. It is not a bad cold. Just a runny nose and mild sore throat, and it hasn't sent me to bed sleeping for hours either. I know it is a cold as my whole family has had it starting with my five year old nephew. Kids are such germ spreaders. It has been weeks since he got it and it slowly moved through my family. I don't know how I got it as I don't hug them often and always wash my hands when seeing them. I haven't even been to the shops in two weeks so I could not have gotten it from somewhere else. It's not Covid as the symptoms don't match.
Things are improving with my partner too. We had an amazing chat the other day about our relationship. He wants to take it more seriously and says he loves and adores me. This comforted me as I thought we were drifting apart. I still can't believe someone would love me so much while I am so limited. I am a lucky woman. He is limited by his Bipolar so we get each other more than anyone else would. We married nearly 17 years ago. Divorced seven years ago, and got back together about three years ago, but on a casual basis at first. No one knows me better than he does. This increase in his feelings and devotion to me scare me a little as I am afraid to get hurt by putting all my heart on the line again. I feel deep love for him too so I am going to dive right in and hope for the best. It will be difficult maintaining our relationship while I am so physically limited but I will do my best.
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Bipolar 1 with psychotic features
PTSD
"Phew! For a minute there I lost myself."
'Karma Police' by Radiohead
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