It was my city's weekly online Scrabble club tonight and i lost all my games. I feel down. This only happens about once a year. I don't know if i'll go in it next week. I'm the highest-rated player in my division and some of the players i get matched with are hundreds of rating points lower than me so it really hurts to lose to them. I try and tell myself just to participate, to be a part of something, to keep a toe-hold in the world. But it's so painful...