Welp, I am currently self-pay, as my insurance options are all over $1000 a month, due to my multiple long hospital stays. We cannot afford that and stil insure the children. So, I go without. i am 6 years overdue for a screening colonocscopy, but to do it out of pocket would likely be around $4-5K or so. I avoid helathcare at all cost. We just can't do it. When I thought I might be having an MI in May, I had to go to the ER. Had to. Three hours and $4K. Chaching.

I right now rely on GoodRX, which gets me down to around $220 a month out of pocket. I am constantly balancing between food and medicine. Every single day. I do not not eat well at all. But if I go without one of my meds, well, we know all about that... I know I am not alone in this, not at all. It makes me sad that I gave away a lot of free care when I was in practice to those in need, but now that I am in need, I cannot get any help. Except from my pdoc, who always cuts his bill for me. So sweet.

Anyway, those mfr. coupons can help a lot when you can find one. I may be looking at Ketamine this fall if my depression will not turn a corner and it is expensive. No idea how we will do that. I know it can be bought on the street, as the hip kids moronically use it to get high. But then, I would just get arrested, so, no-go there.